“Oh please! Dont joke” said one. “I bet you will come back tomorrow” said another.”I have tried to quit many times, but could not resist coming back. I’m sure you would too.” said one more. These were the reactions of some of my friends when I had told them that I would be quitting Facebook.
All these responses strengthened my resolve to quit fb. However I decided not to delete my account as I did not want to lose my network of contacts which I had established . So one day I decided that I would not log in for as long as possible. But I simply didn’t last. The very next day, I jammed in my Id and password and practiced my routine of checking my notifications, analyzing friends profiles and harvesting my farm.
Facebook says it provides a great way to connect and keep in touch with friends but it has made me feel more disconnected. I realized that it had made me much more self-obsessed. I felt the need to be watched and admired by my peers on Facebook. In fact my online life revolved around the need to be more ‘liked’ and get lots of ‘comments’ on whatever I did on Facebook. I have spent hours thinking of that ‘ultra cool status’ ,boasting my iPad, describing every detail of my visit to a cricket stadium, just for the cause of popularizing my online image.
Little did I realize, that Facebook is a place infested with millions of attention seekers like me. Everyone wants their ‘share’ of online fame. From displaying photos with celebrities to posting their near perfect GPAs, everyone are trying to sell themselves for a couple of ‘comments and likes’. Finding out that I constitute just a small portion of others lives in their journey to become more popular made me feel lonelier.
But quitting Facebook altogether is virtually impossible.
All information regarding my college such as schedule of classes, fees, results are being updated on my college Facebook group on a regular basis, tips from seniors regarding placements and further study options keep pouring in, and even the Director sometimes addresses the students through Facebook. I would also like to say an occasional ‘hi’ to my childhood friends just to stay connected with them.
Having already failed in trying to quit Facebook; I have decided to gradually lower my usage on a day to day basis so that I wouldn’t experience the strong desire to log back in and check my notifications and see what others are up to, until I use only my mail account to check notifications regarding my college and keep in touch with old friends.
(P.S – I will be using Facebook to promote this blog).